hating myself..

hey guys.. i'm hating myself.. i'm always bz in skewl and werk.. nowadays, i got mad alot of tyms.. the more i miss her, the more i will b mad at her.. i donnoe y.. we had a small matter to a big matter.. its all because of me.. seriously, im happy for our 5th monthsary.. but yet shes bz helping her frens.. i donnoe y i get mad at her wen she didnt msg me.. she juz too bz.. i shud understand that.. coz usually i will talk to her on the fone at that point of tym.. its been two daes i didnt had a goodnight sleep bcoz she didnt talk to me on the fone b4 i sleep.. its juz my habbit.. haiz..

im hating myself even more.. juz now i juz try to drop all my ego n tend to make a new day n start fresh.. it doesnt werkout coz the impact i gave her yesterday was too hard for her.. im rilly sorie.. i juz dont like to talk alone on the phone.. it will burst me up.. she called me wen im about to sleep, then im so ego to not to talk to her.. i juz said i wan to sleep.. without wishing her gdnyt and everting.. hmm..

i hate myself even more.. my family wen to JB.. i had quarrel with them, coz im lazy to go.. they dropped me off n they went off to JB.. i've to blame myself coz all the prob comes from me.. haiz.. its all because of m ups n down mood..

i hate myself superbly.. im taking a supplement call Methyl ripped its good but it makes my anger level up n down.. its the stuff plus my ego make me feel like Idiot.. haiz.. i warn all my frens not to disturb me.. i may juz burst like dat.. but i didnt tell my gf, coz i tot, i will b ok with her.. hmm.. but it seems wrong..

i hate myself again n again.. Bubu, if u read this, im sorie.. i dont mean aniting, i dont mean to hurt u, i miss u.. i lurf eu.. the more i miss u, the more i will b mad if u dont msg me.. i donnoe y i got this feelings.. haiz..

Sayang, i lurf eu.. i really2 do.. im sorrie for my egoistic character.. im trully sorie.. i will make up to my stoopid behaviour...

I MISS U NADIA ADAM..